maybe you can just enjoy your new freedom and haveing your won place for ashilw? ike you does not have to get verything unpoacked all at one...rome was not built in a day ya know.................dont need to be so hard on yourself! beads still here anytime you ned to talk!
hang in there
know we is thinking of you and our heart goes out to you. hope you feel gooder soon,k

mary & all of us beadys