I am wondering about my relationship with my therapist. It scares me because she is the most open-minded caring motherly person I know. I have been in therapy for many, many years trying to deal with really early trauma. She is sensitive and compassionate and is willing to go with me where I need to go each session. she never pushes an agenda. I am always aloud to call her in between sessions if I need to and she always calls me back if I ask her to. She allows me to express myself through letters in between sessions also if I am having difficulty. I keep an art journal to also express my feeling that I have difficulty talking about and I can share it with her during my sessions if I want to. I have asked her if I am becoming a pain in the ***** - too needy or too dependent, but she says "no". She said that because I have never been dependent on others growing up that it is hard for me to "need" other people. She assures me that it is ok to need her. I see her once a week right now. There have times when I was seeing her only once a month but when things get overwlming she is open to sessions closer together. I have a great fear of abandonment and she knows this. We talk at great lengths about this issue in our sessions. She has consistantly verbalized to me that she is not going to abandon me. I am afraid of how attached I am to her. The maternal attachemtn is what I so need. Sometimes when she hugs me at the end of the session I don't want her to let go. I told her this and she says she knows. I sometimes wonder why I am so lucky to have found a therapist who is so giving. My husband says she is the best thing that could have happened for me. I am a better mom, wife and person - I think through my relationship with her I have grown immensely yet I still feel like a little girl who needs and want a "mom".