just.
bad person again.
want to self harm.
pdoc angry at me when he finds out.
not about the self harm, but that he gave me didier and i still didnt do my uni work.
i did try.
but not enough.
didier hates me.

but didier protected me.
no hallucinations this weekend.
no dad making bad comments.
mum only screaming once.
lots of memories though.
want to hurt self.

dont want to be bad person anymore.
want to disappear.
but who will give didier back to pdoc then?