I am sorry you are going through so much pain with the termination. Can I ask why you need to terminate and start with someone new? Why can you not continue with what is working for you? I don't know what I would do if I were in your situation. I know I would feel so sad if my therapist and I needed to terminate therapy because it helps me so much with her and I cannot imagine working with anyone else since she has been my only therapist for so many years.