I have had bipolar illness 18 years and it is the lithium which has kept me alive and functioning along with a couple of antidepressants. In the eighteen years since this illness I have had some really healthy functioning times and other times where I could not function or work. It took 10 years for me to become stabilized with the right medications and I have taken a total of 32 different meds in order to come up with the right combination. I hung in there although I lived by myself. You can do it, too. You are also a survivor. Just by reaching out tells me that you would like to connect and survive. HANG IN THERE!
Slick