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Originally Posted by sillycat
Please, I know a lot of people will think very negatively of me and I am so sorry about that, I can't explain it, it's like the person who told all the lies is a totally different person. Today I am so honest, if i even tell the slightest lie i feel guilty about it straight away and tell the truth so i don't know how i could have done it. Sorry
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Hi sillycat, devil's advocate here. Pleased to meet you, and thank you for posting.
I hope you won't mind my offering another point of view:
It sounds as though back then, something was driving you to lie -- for all practical purposes, you were often
stuck in lying. More recently, you've discovered that you don't like the consequences of lying and (among other things) you're trying to make up for past lies by scrupulously telling the truth, revisiting incidents in your past that you know you lied about or even think you may have, and trying your hardest to find and tell the truth about those. On balance, telling the truth does seem better than lying -- but it seems to me that getting
stuck in telling the truth could be hardly better for you than getting stuck in lying.
I'd like to see you able to choose freely for yourself when/if to tell the truth and when/if to lie, and to
know it's you choosing. Granted, you might decide to tell the truth 95% of the time and only "white" (polite and non-hurtful) lies the rest of the time but I'd like to feel (and have you feel) that it
is your choice to do so; right now, I'm not entirely sure.
How does what I just said look to you?