Everyone...

Kiya--I am glad this email moved to you contact your T---glad I could help
I am trying to trust the process.....

Peaches--- thanks! I am scared to let T know when I feel like I am starting to zone out and by the time I do, I think she is already aware of it and changes the topic...When i was younger I was TERRIFIED to tell my mother i was sick or didnt feel well so i let her figure it out without me saying anything and I guess I am sort of doing that with T. T usually sees the discomfort and move away from the topic. But you and everyone else is right. I can't force it. I will just have to move into the uncomfy zone a little at a time instead of throwing myself into it full force.

thanks everyone