Hi Caitlin,

Sounds like things are pretty tough for you right now. Previous posters were right, only you can determine if you have a problem. I just want to give you some food for thought.

Sounds like you've decided the drugs are bad. Excellent, because yeah, drugs are bad. But you said that you've got a handle on the drinking, that you don't drink more than your friends.

I've got a few questions in relation to the drinking. Do normal drinkers post things and then not remember posting it? Do you ever do drugs and not drink? What I mean is, think about the times you've gotten into trouble, IE: getting in the car with the guy who'd been drinking, doing drugs. In the times that you feel bad about behaviors and drugs, are you drinking at the same time?

I'm only asking these questions because it was questions like these that helped me see that any substance at all, was my problem. When I first got sober, I'd here horror stories, people getting DUI's, loosing husbands, loosing kids, houses, cars, jobs. I thought, well I'm not THAT bad, that stuff hasn't happened to me. YET. I realized those things hadn't happened to me YET. But yet stands for "you're eligible too". I hadn't lost those things primarily because I didn't have them. My life was just putting one foot in front of the other, just existing. There wasn't happiness. I drove drunk but thank GOD I didn't kill anyone.

I'm back here from not being around for awhile, but Christina included enough to get me caught up. It sounds like you're reaching out for help, and this is a fabulous place for it. I hope you keep coming back, and keep sharing.

Hugs,
Rayna