((((silversparrow))))

it is june 1 over here, but i dont know about where you are. have you had your appt yet? i have been keeping my fingers crossed for you, and i'll keep them crossed until you come back to let us know how you went .

(((kiya))) - the first time i mentioned something i was worried about, my doc insisted on having a look (different body bit though). i couldnt say 'no' but i burst into tears half way through (flashback), so i think she knows to go slow with me now. she even told the nurses last time to be nice to me and give me a lolly after my needle because she knows i always cry with that, too.

i saw her today and when i said "we're only talking, not going further" she went "uh oh... one of those problems" and smiled. she said she isn't too concerned right now, but she wants me to take pain killers before it's meant to happen, and if it keeps happening we might have to do something, but that for now it's ok. so i feel safe for now, at least. she is a good dr, i think she just didnt understand before how scary all of this was for me, so didnt 'read' my hesitancy very well.