dear miss_A, you are not alone!

i'm having an extreme panic attack right now! Today at noon, I am suppose to have a reunion w/ a friend who i haven't seen since i was extremely ana........like 20 years ago......i've been going up & down weight-wise; the past week i have been 'porking out' & not getting NO exercise (totally agoraphobic)I didn't know we'd be getting together so soon.....this early a/m/ i have been chugging water so I don't eat something b/c if I eat, the fingers go down the throat...i cannot do that to myself again.......i feel like a blimp....i'm afraid of our get together....cannot sleep!

what to do/ DAYZEE9