Amazon Mom, it's not so much that T is forcing or pushing me, I think she feels like I might be a little bit stronger emotionally than I was when I first started seeing her back in october--though I hadn't noticed, and she probably thinks I might be able to handle pushing just a little more OR maybe based on what happened a few weeks ago after I over shared and LLT completely left the building, maybe she got a little concerned and was trying to poke around to find out what happened. But I would like to be able to open up more. So it's more so me wanting to push just a tad more...but I can never find that balance either I under share or over share...there is no middle, which seems to be the theme of the rest of my life

Chaotic and Kiya

I think there have a been a few times when i have pushed myself too much too fast too soon and completely regretted it and left T's office feeling so outside of myself that i vowed to NEVER to that again. Those are the only times I can remember, though T says there have been more than a few times I have gone beyond my limit, that she has noticed. She does want me to be able to push a little past the discomfort and be able to stay there... I just need to learn to take smaller steps...

or maybe she just wanted to know what i think would happen if I did(i.e. zone out), so she would know how to proceed should that happen in the future....

we'll see what happens on wednesday