I've been such a recluse that I've totally distanced my self from my family (except 2 sons & hubby) and today I have to go with my husband and kids to meet our new nephew who was born over night.

I'm getting extremely anxious and feel a panic attack coming on. I don't know how I'm going to face everyone without them knowing what is wrong with me because they are going to start asking questions I'm not ready to answer. The maternity ward of a hospital is not the place I wanted to let them know what I've been going through. I know they are going to start asking questions and I've always been a very private person even before I became a recluse. We have to go to the hospital but I don't want anyone to talk to me. This is going to be a terrible day that I'm just not up for. Not only is my family going to be there, but I've never met my Sister-in-Law's family and they are going to be there too. I'm in no condition to meet people and to speak with them. What am I going to do....it is terrible to feel this way. and I'm very scared.

Missi