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That's a great question. T tells me all the time how challenging I am because I avoid topics and give him a lot of what he calls push back. I agree, doing therapy with me is a challenge. Maybe that's what T gets out of it, the challenge, the thrill of getting coconut to recover from trauma. I fight him with all my might, but he doesn't give up. On the contrary, he pushes and pushes until I give up and I let him in. He also always tells me how he wants me to do better, to be healthy, to be able to sleep. He wants those things for me, even when I don't or when I don't care or when I give up. For many of us T is the first person who we share our real selves with, the first person we really trust, the first person who we open our pain to. I guess that's what they get out of it. They are our witness. The other day I told T that he didn't understand what I was going through. He said "I've walked with you long enough to understand what you're thinking and feeling". That's what T gets out of it in a way, to walk with me.