i was in for some grief and depression issue.

but i dont have any support from anyone. and i dont think i can go to a doctor or therapist for a diagnosis. since i cannot longer trust them and i think i have some fear in them. afterall what the tell their patients are actually lies. and its hard to point out what they say is real and what is not. and also they never take words from their hospital patients for real, so no matter what you say they never believe in you.