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Jun 02, 2009, 12:12 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2007
Posts: 204
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Quote:
Originally Posted by Catherine2
You admit to going a "little" nuts and questioning if it was med related...
So that's changed now? Interesting that all of a sudden he attacked you first, a convenient claim after you've been put on the spot for your abusing him.
Yes, I was shouting and swearing and all that. But he attacked me first. I don't know if he was going to hit me, but he just sort of rushed at me, and i shoved him away. I'm not changing my story at all.
You and who were yelling? See your statement below..."then my dad got involved and you hit him??
I was pretty much the only one doing the yelling.
No one here is denying that there are issues between you and your parents. Very serious ones.
Going nuts, as you called it, is most likely frightening to you and for sure it is terrifying for them.
I'm not living with them any more, it was probably terrifying for my nephews, but they were hustled out of there before it escalated.
The suggestion of therapy has been made several times. With this getting so out of hand, professional help would quite possibly be a life saver...
I'm already in therapy
My honest feeling is that you are hurting very badly and cannot see any way of making it better.
There are better ways, and I believe you are aware of it.
It's hard taking that first step towards recovery, if you don't take it, you won't ever be happy.
People have problems, they do their best to work on them, and take it one thing at a time. It's been done for a very long time...give it sincere consideration then take action that means healing for you.
Thanks for your advice. I've moved out and I will discuss this with my psych to see if the SNRI is to blame. This behaviour is out of character for me, sort of. I blow my top about once a year, looking back.
Your behavior is being called into question--Not You. You are still a human being going through a rough time...
Violence does not have to be a part of your behavior, and taking responsibility for your part in this terribly sad situation will benefit you in many ways.
I'm not a violent person, but again, I did not initiate it.
Btw, I'm glad you have internet access so you can let us know how you are doing...
and perhaps let us know how your father is doing.
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I'm honestly not concerned about his welfare. And I don't know why I should be. It was a long time coming.
I'm really just disappointed in myself and my actions. They have painted me as somebody I know I'm not. My concern/guilt is for my nephews.
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