This morning I am especially saddened at what I have gone through the last week with the hypomania and depression. It scared the living daylights out of me that I could go so low and so high. Both lows and highs were almost in the range of being totally out of control. The two things I learned this last week is that this illness is not my fault and that I cannot, I repeat cannot drink anything caffeinated or with alcohol in it as these two items just exacerbate whatever mood I am in at the moment. And there were lots of moments. How did I survive this episode...I don't know, just by sheer luck with a lot of positive thinking and by continuing to take my medications as prescribed and thankfully, also, for the Seroquel which put the breaks on the manic phase and dulled the pain of the depression.

Slick