I had a nightmare last night related to an impending interaction in another...potential professional relationship that will likely really push the boundaries of my comfort zone. Well technically, I guess it already has since just setting up the meeting has triggered nightmares.

I think one fear that attachment causes in me is the feeling that I am more likely to cross a boundary that shouldn't be crossed. IDK, for me if I don't care or don't trust someone my personal boundaries and sense of what I should and shouldn't or allow are very clear and it is easy for me to be decisive about what I want and don't want from an interaction. With T and possibily with this other relationship it is uncomfortable and basically intended to challenge my existing boundaries. This scares me because I not only feel vulnerable I AM vulerable. Not sure if that makes sense. Justs makes me want to say disconnected and safe from harm.