MY T apparently noticed a lot about me that she kept to herself! After a year or so, she told me that I was doing better because I had more eye contact with her. I was embarrassed at first, but then we talked about it and I made having almost continual eye contact one of my goals. I think looking at her increased my attachment to her. It was so scary! I realize I still don't maintain eye contact with others in my life, so I need to work on it.

She also told me when I was agitated. She likes that word, lol. After the fact, she told me she's very much aware of her client's body language, that it's her job. Yeah, kind of scary but nice in a way. It's why I trust her now to know what's best for me when I don't know myself.

I know what you mean about accepting the comforting, and wondering if it will last. If you accept it, it will become part of you and will last. Therapy is a package deal, I found. You gotta risk a lot, hurt a lot, but you also gain a lot.