FoolZ, lol, you are good. Like how you take off at the end there. No I'm not triggered, but finding this discussion more and more interesting.

Do they call "********" to delusional thinking? Like I have delusional thinking that makes me believe, at times, that one or a few people are controlling my life. There's a part of my mind that knows this is crazy, not to mention impossible - someone would have to spend their whole life, all their time, following me around. They'd even be in charge of traffic and TV conversations!

But when I'm too depressed, stressed or triggered that's not only what I think - I Believe it and will go off on people based on my feeling & thinking that they are doing things on purpose to make me angry, or hurt me or teach me a lesson. Like that. I feel hopeless and like I have no control over my life. Calling "********" when I'm in that zone would just make me go right off the edge and act really crazy, maybe even hurt myself or someone else.

"to ask instead of gaming"
See most often I was/am not gaming (and if I was I was not aware of it so the "********" call just baffled me and scared me, made me doubt my own feelings and motives), but I'm not asking for help either. I'm just saying what's happening with me or how I'm really feeling in answer to people's questions, or in conversation in general.

Other's will interpret it as gaming. I learned as a child that if I'm going to get anything I need, or be taken care of, I have to do it all myself. I'm still learning to ask for help when I need it. I also learned that if I do ask for help, most often the answer is NO. So I'm also afraid to ask for help, or was. I'm much better than I used to be. It hurts to have my family or people I thought of as good friends say no to a request I felt was reasonable and appropriate.

"Connections, connections! Follow the trail! lol Don't look now, but you're doing DBT already "
Okay Smarty Pants.

"Dare I suggest... that it might be neither with the therapy nor with the woman, but with what you wouldn't want either one to trigger for you right now?"

No argument there from me. I'm just figuring out MY particular PTSD and triggers. I want to stop that as much as possible. Even more though I want the delusional thinking process to stop. I'm not getting how DBT helps with delusional thinking, or if it's even supposed to? And yes, again, I do NOT like feeling uncomfortable or "out of control" - at all! So there's that re the DBT. My feeling is why would anyone want to be MADE to feel uncomfortable, I've had enough of that all my life. I'm yearning, searching for comfort and ease in my relationships.