Thank you so much for your comments. At school, I don't think people know Im feeling soo bad, because I never talk about it. When I do hint it, its just laughed off as nothing serious. On top of that, because the way I look and the things some people know I have, they believe I can't possibly have any problems at all. I just feel worse when everyone, including professors, are talking about friends, having fun and how excited they are for the weekend. I never have things like that to look forward too, so I just feel like a deeper loser. Thoughts have just gotten heavier lately. Sorry if this was extensive, but thank you soo much for reading and responding.