I have noticed an aspect of my depression that I have trouble understanding, and I wanted to know if anyone else has experienced it.

I find that I often resent the well meaning attentions of friends and loved ones who know full well that something is wrong and who want to help me in some way. I find that I push these people away from me. When I am depressed I do not want to talk. I want to be in a quiet dark room by myself and I want to sleep and be oblivious.

The depression might lift a little, but I find sometimes that the resentment doesn't. Today for example I actually feel okay. I've been able to do some work, and I've eaten properly and had a good, active, busy day, and I've felt fine. But I've also felt that my better mood would be destroyed if I had to share it with anyone.

It's almost as if in my dark moods, I don't want to be with anyone, but also that in my better moods I don't want to be with anyone either, because the better mood feels too fragile.

Does anyone else feel similar to this sometimes?