My bodywork day went fine - she is REALLY super aware. She even noticed a discrepancy between my body desperately wanting/needing her hand on my back, and some very quiet part of my mind being against it -and had me talk through that to see what was best for the whole. I scheduled again for next month. Wish I could afford weekly. We first talked about my other experiences with massage, then about how I am in total control over what happens to me, and i can even keep all clothes on if i want =) so, we did. I was prepared to just remove the shirt but once she said that, it was more important to let the system feel trust and be secure than about getting the knots worked out (mind, now I wish i had... so much pain still). But I think it was a really good beginning and something I am willing to invest more into.

Dreamseeker - just be aware that that book is VERY triggery. Very indepth about the abuse she suffered @_@ just so you know in advance.
Kiya