Oh, Kiya you go girl! After my T's unexpected endorsement of my TIP (Touch Intregration Plan) and then my dramatic and immediate inner child retreat I kind of put the breaks on actually officially doing it. I'm kind of psedo-doing it, which I'm not sure is working for me all that well.

I think I've successfully reached the point where I can now, with confidence endure VERY intense non-sexual touch situations. When I think about some of the courses I've put myself through this past year...I cannot believe it.

The part that is not working well is my ablity to focus-IN on the touch and allow myself to really experience it and the range of emotions it triggers. The touch situations I've been able to create have not provided the safe environment in which risk DELVING. Honestly, I think I was fully aware of this and may even be another way I do things but don't REALLY do things. Then again...maybe this was just my way of taking baby steps in this direction.
ANYWAY...Kiya I am glad that you are brave enough and think enough of your self to do this approach in the way it is supposed to be done. I am glad you've found a trained bodyworker.

I've also met what appeared to be a well trained bodyworker and actually witnessed a brief sample treatment.However, the intensity of what I saw, scared the heck our of me. Maybe it is just the parasite talking but I feel like if that person worked on me...I would likely end up losing it, start balling, and become completely overwhelmed by what was released (this is a recurring nightmare I have). I don't think I could handle that at the moment.

The good news is...the Spirit may have offered me an alternative -- a mentee. This individual seems very interested in developing this skill set but needs experience and practice. Now, I am usually not interested in serving as someone's training mankin...but for some reason I'm finding this idea more palatable and worth considering. It seems less threathening some how.

PLEASE Kiya...continue to post about your experiences with this approach. I'd love to compare notes on what we learn from it.