My mother has also been gone now for many years. I know she cared for me and loved me but for unknown reasons I just never felt close or really connected to her. I think in the last 2 years I've thought of her and even missed her more often than I think I've ever did.

Recently I've start to wonder what my mother was really like; if I am more like her than I ever realized? I have a lot of questions and regrets about this relationship now and unfortunately, no way of getting more information or releasing the my guilt for not appreciating her more--every one is now dead, I can't get answers to my why questions..