Hey I understand totally! Matter of fact, i spend so much time thinking people will leave, that i forget to have a good time when im around them.

I have spent most of my life pushing people out before they could get too close. Its a scary thing. Trust. I have issues with trust that I dont think will ever get away.

I get jealous, annoyed, frustrated, if they dont pay attention to me, and that alone, makes them back off.

Just part of our makeup you know?

Take care,

Colleen