Silversparrow
Ive 15 and ive been sexually abused since i was little but i never got any kind of examination before, even after it was reported. ive been too scared of the same thing. i think the best thing would either be to have your mom wait in the waiting room or you could bring a friend with you or meet up with one afterwards. bringing your ipod or mp3 is a good idea too. it depends on your age but if you are of age, the doctors do have to keep your exam confidential and wont tell your mom anything that you dont want her to know but if you are a minor then they would have to tell your mom if you are in danger or being hurt. it depends on the doctor but some doctors can tell if you were abused by looking but some can mistake it for normal childhood injuries. your fears are completley normal.
im sorry that you had to go through something like that. and im sorry that i couldnt be of more help but i am here if you need to talk. please be safe.