Thaks for your response.
That's the trouble. I am not on meds yet. I have been waiting since March for that appointment. It is next week, so hopefully all of this will begin to balance out.

I did speak to my therapist about it and he didn't give me a definitive answer, but is trying to help me figure it out. He did say that there are definite ups and downs going on with me. I think he feels like his hands are tied until I am more balanced with meds, but he always creates a safe space for me and told me that I can call him if I need to.

Today I feel good, so far. I took a long walk and I hope the exercise and fresh air will help keep me up today.