Chaotic - I wanted to respond to the part where you said the intensity of what you witnessed scared you - I think it does vary. Mine was totally not intense - we actually laughed a lot, mainly because she's been thru it all too. And the laughter keeps me more present =) The part that did start to freak me out was that while i filled out the paperwork, she sat down not 2 feet from me and silently watched. @_@ and i kept messing up. But I kept asking myself to breathe, and soon got used to her presence.

I did email her, and she responded fairly quick saying that maybe my attempt to "gently push thru this stuff was not popular, and that maybe it would be better to gently sit with it". Heh. I think it is the probing questions that get me. "What is the feeling here? did you just go away? what is the tension holding? do you think you can feel what is behind this?" Gaaaaaah nooo! I don't wanna!!!! I just want a massage to make the pain go away!