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Old Jun 03, 2009, 01:56 PM
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Originally Posted by Sannah View Post
At this point do you feel that you help them but won't allow them close to help you??????
Yes.

A couple of weeks ago after a late night out with friends my one friend came right out and asked me about my childhood and if I had been abused. Now we've had deep conversations, but BOOM I shut right down and just like during therapy a big knot formed in my throat and that was it. My end of the conversation was over and my friend was left talking to wall. I hindsight, I don't know why I withdrew inward.This friend has always accepted me and I don't think there would anything from my past that if she knew about would ultimately end or dramatically change our friendship. I can honestly say...I really don't care about what she was like or the things she did or had done to her as a child. How, will I listen to her tell me if she wanted to? Yes. And I did listen to what she was saying about her childhood.I just refused to make it a two-way share.

I don't mind knowing details about people, but I don't need to know them it unless she wants me too. I think my friend is the same way. I think she just asked me about it, to let me know that she understood stuff and I could talk to her about it. But... Instead of thanking her for going there, I just shutdown and when home to bed. --- I'm kind of a jerk

Now to my credit, I was a bit smash at the time this conversation occurred and well I am NOT a rambling drunk.