Thanks, I had a good session today, and I told her everything, including meeting that other T. It felt like a whirlwind session. She said she could see I was a lot less angry and could see the sadness. We talked about her eyes, my mom eyes and my daughter's eyes. She wants me to bring in a picture of my mom if I am comfortable with it. She wants to see the crazy looking eyes that even my daughter noticed the other week. There is a crazed cold look to someone really gone mentally who is very violent, even my T agrees. You can see it in serial killers and you can see it in my mom, you would know it if you even saw it kind of look because you can't forget it.
So I feel better for talking to her again. I still feel raw though. It is hard.