YES... Kiya the probing that's the part that the deeper part of me whispers to me that I need. But the other part of me says no, that is the part that is going to take you beyond what you can handle at this point.

The part of the Heart Centered approach that seemed too intense was when the instructor started talking softly to the client (organism, tissue). When she did this it was like she was reaching inside of me and pulling out that little inner child. Again the concept of energy fields and connecting with another person is very new to me. It was like there was a vacuum in that room that was just drawing everything to it. I remember a few times the instructor look up from the client and directly at me and I almost believed she was connected and talking to me and not the person she was treating.I had to keep shaking my head and reminding myself I was just an observer. I think this is what scared me most. If the treatment was powerful enough to draw me in as an observer, what might it do if I was actually the primary target. IDK, when I reflect on this experience maybe physcially being touched was only a small part of it.

ANYWAY... It definately got my attention and also raised the caution flag. I just wonder if my little inner child leaves me vulnerable to being manipulated. This fear I think is what my nightmares are about. It causes me to remember times in the past where I did things that at first were harmless. But later led to things that I knew were wrong but was less able to resist.