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Originally Posted by chaotic13
Not sure why but... I REALLY struggle with having women examine me. I can't stand the female PA at my neurologists office and when I had some pre-op testing done I had to resist the urge to choke the nurse doing my EKG. There was no excuse for this reaction because she was being pleasant and treated me very professionally. I think I'm just a B@tch.
I don't remember being mistreated or abuse by any woman in childhood.. It is just weird.
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LOL.. Chaotic, I don't thik so..
you know theres something here.i too have had this reaction but the woman did treat me in a condesending manner .She was examining me mentally . and she had has ALOT of POWER.
so ..It could relate back to my mother .I was also betrayed by a few female girlfriends in my childhood who turned on me to be a part of a group that be littled me and called me names .
So I think thats where some of my anger comes from. trusting in therapists and being turned on and feeling betrayed.
You did mention earlier that you didn"t feel you could share your abuse with a friend who wanted to know.
I got a bit overly protective today with a man answering the phone in the patient rep office this afternoon . I recognized him from an AA meeting so when he asked to have my patient record number I responded
Do you really have to know? And he backed down.
Not his fault . Someone before him set that up...but I felt good about choosing who can pull up my records and see them . theres ALOT to see.
So privacey and vulnerabilty seem to be a thread weaving through out.
and we can't always choose who we wan't or not want to to know about our conditions . nor how they may judge us.
Patricia