Patricia... I don't like reading this...but it is true.

When I went to my first therapy appointment, I refused to give my insurance information. I didn't want a mental health claim on my record. Now I have a bunch of them. More and more people know about my past with every
passing day. This makes me ill.

Silver... How about this for an option....
Assume your mother loves you unconditionally and would really like an opportunity to show you this and help you heal from the abuse you suffered. Sit down with her and tell her about the abuse and how scared you are about what it and hiding it from everyone has done to you.

You never know...maybe our assumptions we have T (or had) of our mother's ability to raise to the challenge and help us are (were) false.

What do you really have to loose..I'm finding that in the end people are going to find out eventually anyway. I my hiding was able to do was delay it for 30 years.