Me and my mom are not as close as we once were and we even have had many periods of not speaking over the years. There has been a lot of water over the bridge, lots of misunderstandings, some neglect and lots of heartache endured.

We were not speaking for about a year this time and then I learned about a month ago that my mother has cancer. I was torn apart for weeks after I found out she had surgery and this is a recurring cancer. The thought that came to me is that if I do not call her we may never speak again and she may very well die. I knew she did not want to call me because she is more stubborn than I. So, I just picked up the phone one day and called her and said I called to see how you're doing. I also wanted her to have some support of someone calling. Support can help a sick person.

I have left the past behind because this is life and death and I do love her despite all the water over the brigde, etc. I realize she is not going to change and I called. I don't regret it.

I feel bad for her because she is in pain all the time and sometimes it gets real bad. They don't know what is causing the pain at this point but they operated and got a small tumor out.

She still sounds like she has a lot of energy still but I know my mom may not live forever now and I just can't be so stubborn as to not try to help. I love her and forgive her and I'm trying to understand her. I sure as heck have not been perfect either, who is? So, I would want forgiveness and so I give it.

Just wanted to ask for anyone to say prayers for my mom. For CQs mom. Thanks in advance. CQ

<font color=purple>"In individuals, insanity is rare; but in groups, parties, nations, and epochs it is the rule." Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil</font color=purple>