so I am a little disappointed. today T went easy on me. we kept it fairly simple. little i brought up how I regretted telling her something a few weeks ago and we just skimmed over it. I told her I think I am taking too long in therapy and all she said was "it's hard and it takes time to change negative patterns we have been in for a long time"--that's all she said. I kind of wanted to talk about some other deeper stuff...even if i had to struggle. I wanted to try, but we kept it really straight forward and didnt digg too deep at all. She said she wanted to give me a break and said that sometimes we just need to keep things on the "surface"?? so because I am planning on moving out of state we discussed what i need to do in order for it to happen successfully. it was a decent appt,i guess. Maybe she is getting tired of me and just wants me to hurry up and so she can open that slot for someone else....

Michah--i am the opposite of you. I definitely don't have outward ruptures with T--partly because I am terrible at expressing my frustrations and anger and usually take it out on myself when I struggle to talk and open up....I definitely know it's me. I have kept so much to myself for so long that it's hard to just let everything out. I don't even know where to start. I have told T when I dont want to talk about something, but you are right, we always returned to it later...