Hi! I was diagnosed with ADHD 3 years ago at the age of 40. I take a low dose of adderall (generic) 10mg in the morning to get me going and helps me focus just enough to study. I am in grad school pursuing marriage and family counseling. The work is a lot of reading and writing essays and without the meds, I get frustrated and angry. When it begins to wear off, I just take a 5mg tablet each time it begins to wear off. That way I am not constantly on it and maybe that is why my mood is still good. I think it helps my mood because I am not frustrated when I am on it. I don't know. I just know that I could not be doing my graduate studies if it weren't for the adderall. As for you, I know you want to feel and act normal, but my question is if you don't finish school, and you know you can, how will your life be if you don't pursue your degree? With this struggling economy, you need to think about your future and how you are going to support yourself and those you love. I am probably sounding like an old mother hen, but my guess is that if you don't take your medication, you will struggle and struggle, become frustrated and end up dropping out of school and then what? Can you consider taking your meds until you finish? Sometimes we must make sacrifices in order to see the light at the end of the tunnel. We must put up with a little discomfort to reap the reward. I know you want to be off your meds. You must also look at the fact that adhd is not something that just goes away, and if you had diabetes or high blood pressure, you would take those meds to regulate the symptoms to save your life. Taking these meds can save your life in that it can help you gain an education and make something out of your life. Maybe you need them regulated, or a different kind or maybe you were on too much. If you get back on them, find someone to help you with behavior modification or focusing techniques and stay in school maybe a dosage can be found that is perfect for you. I am sorry I am sounding like a mother hen, but I have learned myself that I have to have an education to support myself and my girls if something were ever to happen between my husband and me or whatever. I couldn't support my girls with just a clerical job or whatever. So please don't give up on school and do find a way to stay on your meds. School is so very important.