Well, nothing else is going on so please oblidge me while I ramble on about nothing...

Sitting here at my computer drifting aimlessly, checking for replies to posts on various boards I use, reading Yahoo's news, planning tomorrow, daydreaming...

My pet goose is standing on my bed grooming it's feathers and making little squawking noises every now and then.

I took a Lorazapam (1mg) about 6 hours ago and for the first time in months, I have actually felt normal again although I get little aches and pains here and there that make me worry but my anxiety is now almost non-existant. I'm wondering how long this will last and wether any new problems will pop up. Youi just never know when it comes to anxiety. I had an arm pit block that affects the neck so maybe that explains the stiffness and occational ache on that side of my neck. I just took a Vistaril which is an antihistmaine (otherwise known as Atarax) so I'm starting to get a bit sleepy.

I'll usually shut the computer off, take my shoes off and then crawl into bed. Then my goose will hop up there with me and start giving me some loving in my face and making a big fuss over me. Sometimes I'll pull it under the covers and sleep with it all night like that and other times (like last night) I'll just let it be and sleep under the covers by myself. It really is a great pet.

Well, can't think of much else to say at the moment. I'm just sort of reflecting on everything and feeling kind of lonely right now so I figured I'd come in here and just share my thoughts. I've really come to like all of you a lot over the months. A lot of good people here who really care and want to help other people and I think that is AWESOME. I always feel very comfortable and cared for here.

Sometimes I get in a panic and say the wrong thing or look selfish or insensitive because I'm so caught up in my own little world and other times, I am able to think clearly and I feel good enough to sit down and create a thoughful post where I'm not freakling out about this or that. Anyway, I guess I'll stop rambling and hit the hay. Nite to all

- GreyGoose