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How cool and supportive of your T to go with your to your appt.

I think holding hands is such a gentle and safe way to share touch. My 12 year old son reaches over and holds my hand for a minute sometimes while we are driving in the car. T and I hold hands for parts of every session. When I was in college, I held hands with my friends - female and male - occasionally.

Some part of you must have needed soothed, and you reached out for something safe and reassuring. Maybe now that you know that it happened, you will be able to reach out for that comfort and reassurance again....