thanky you sweetie . i will see pdoc next week, probably, and maybe mention it then. the crisis part is over (he's back in the grovelling 'let's make up' stage ) - these things never really last long. so i dont think i need to call the police/crisis team or anything, because things are back to normal. i thought about telling my GP, but she can be a bit stern sometimes. she does it caringly, but i need to make my own decisions, and she is one tough cookie to stand up against!

it was just a shock, that's all. it hadn't happened for ages. like - years. i guess that's why i had such a bad reaction. in itself, it wasn't such a big deal.

i finally had a shower just then and am feeling so much more grounded and in control again. must remember this for the next time i flip out.

thank you so much for your concern, lovely lady. it means so much to me that i have ppl here to connect with.