I agree with the last couple of posts. It isn't because your T doesn't care, it is because he does care and doesn't want to reinforce the cutting.

Here I am going to play devils advocate, be warned!:
I totally understand the thinking he was your friend. I fight this feeling all the time. Sometimes I fall in love with my T then have to reallign my brain again to remember that, no we don't have a relationship other then patient/doctor. My T has severely limited his availibility to me because he does not want me to develop an over reliance on him. I can leave messages on his voice mail during office hours and he will call back if I ask specifically for him to do so. My other option is to write to him. It is not because he doesn't care about me, it is because he lives his life in the middle of everyone else's trauma. He needs to be able to have time when he doesn't have to worry about me or his kajillion other patients. This is healthy behavior on his part because it saves him from burning out and makes it possible for him to care for us longer. But I believe he truely does care what happens to us. And yes, I have hated his guts many times.

I just hope that this note finds you feeling a least a wee bit better. You are in my thoughts dear one.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson