Thanks justfloating, but it is more than scared of living, I have never felt like this before, never had a very strong will to live, but this week I am getting some very dark thoughts, I believe that no matter what, I was always able to see a bit of light at the end of the tunnel even if it was a tiny glimmer but right now there is just nothing. Never have I felt so much pain, so much emptiness...why does life have to be like this for some of us..these days I cringe when I hear other people laughing or enjoying life, I just cant find anything to smile about, nothing..no hope, nothing