I have a huge issue about giving back to people. my bf gives back alot...he buys me things treats me like a princess and listens to me. I on the other hand very little to give back since I have a low income and not a lot of emotional support. I lean alot on my bf and anyone who gives me attention. my bf has no problem that I have a low income...he desn't want me to buy him things...I think he likes feeling in control.
I guess I have a problem with giving back to people because I feel they will not appreciate it....I put my heart into a lot of things. when people don't appreciate something I feel hurt...I give my bf less expensie things because I don't have the money...I want to give him things...but he doesn't appreciate them or like them...he will see the effort but has no interest in the gifts
most of the time in my relationship...my bf babies me...I rarely baby him...i guess I need a lot of attention and emotional support but I'm not sure why this is....could this be because I didn't get a lot of attention at home...I have a huge lack of trust in people...could this also ahve to do with my childhood experience...I have very few friends because I want people to know the real me and love me for me...I have troube finding those types of people...I like to be babied because I dunno...I feel guilty for not giving alot back to my bf...I don't really know what to give him...
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