Anony,

I know how you feel. But life is not forever going to be this way. Now you are not yourself. It is not reasonable for you to try to bear these burdens. When I am overwhelmed by everything, I read a book on being spiritual or on something I am curious about that is not serious. Be kind to yourself. Get rest, things will look up. It takes time. If I can help, please write me. I am new here. Kate1218