thanks sweetie.

i'm too ashamed to post the 'real' details... i guess that's why i'm being so evasive. in two minds about whether i should see pdoc next week. he cancelled yesterday's appt, and i don't really want to see him next week and face the music. i think he was ok with it when i could assure him it wasn't happening anymore, but i'm scared about what he will do if i say there was a slip up.

i am scared of him right now anyway. he told me he would call if i wanted yesterday, and i asked him to call me and tell me he's not angry at me because i'm too scared to go back (i was scared even before this incident). but he didn't call, so maybe he is angry after all.

i'm not sure i can do anything about it. i feel stupid. im not really a good person.