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need to write or i will make a bad choice. spouse came home with bad news last night about his job. possible lay-off or 20% paycut. i tried to listen and be supportive.
he started same conversation today with comment "i'm a dinosaur". i tried to be a listener and assure him that i have confidence in him and believe he can find a way through this. and then he said.....
YOU SURE HAVE A LOT OF ADVICE FOR SOMEONE WHO IS NOT DOING ANYTHING MUCH AT ALL.
i told him i was trying to be supportive if he wanted to talk and he said STOP TRYING TO BE A FIXER.
i am distressed because i have been walking eggshells since last night, trying to support but not knowing what he really wanted from me. i feel like he took a verbal punch at me. if i confront his rudeness this could escalate into something ugly. if i don't confront his ugliness i am letting him get away with disrespect.
my littles inside are upset and on the edge of tears that i can't cry because i am afraid. right now i hate this person i married. he is a self-righteous ratfink with delusions of being such a great guy (to everyone who isn't me) i am so glad he's going to be out of town this week, i will be happy to see him gone. i wanted to support him and be there for him and he wants nothing i CAN give and wants everything i DON'T have.
i would welcome input on this situation and support until he leaves tomorrow.
feeling squashed,
leslie and pixies in hiding
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