I can relate. That is me exactly when not on meds. Anti-psychotics are what work for me. Seroquil is good. Prolixin helps. Clozaril does too. These are the 3 thay i've been on before. Right now I am on both seroquil and prolixin.

Do you have a pdoc?

I have also found, when not on meds, that benedryl helps me get sleepy, and relaxation tapes help with the thoughts.