There is a real class for anger management, and you definitely qualify, as far as I can see....

Perhaps a truthful session with your therapist can get you enrolled in the next class in your area.

I do hope that you can learn to understand that it's not what others do that should determine our actions. We act as we feel, and sometimes we act irresponsibly, or uncontrollably, or violently, or all of them at once.

This is something you can learn about and begin to change.

As an adult, it is against the law to hit another person. Do you know that? Man or woman. You can go right to jail for that. They are sending teens to jail for it now in many places.

That is surely a place I hope you will not have to see...

We are all responsible for our own behaviors... especially since we are no longer little children.

There are broken boundaries, I can see from your post, as well. Safety.
Trust.

You can do something about this and I certainly hope you will, for your sake, and eventually, others that come into your life and those that already do love you.

I know of someone who did similar actions as you, and felt resentment and dislike towards their parents, and they didn't seek help at an early age, and as a result, ended up feeling justified in hurting another person later on down the road, because of some excuse.

They ended up in jail for almost a year in their 20's.

I'm sharing this because in that situation, the person didn't belong in the situation to begin with and neither do you.

It takes two people to argue.

Learn to be the hero in your own life and handle yourself in every situation where you may be tested. In areas where you are weak, learn to be strong. Make these weaknesses your long-suites.

The best way to overcome your own personal challenges is to learn how to be effective by working on yourself, no matter if time is involved.

There are no quick fixes, so I'd get right on it if I were in your shoes.

Get help. Learn. Be strong... and change those childish and detrimental impulses into what makes you a better person, one who has their well-being in hand, and the well-being of others also.

Learn to be welcome and respected, by respecting yourself and all others as the imperfect humans we are.

Get help now, learn and change, and soon, your family will see you have changed, and you will know it because you will feel compelled to ask for the forgiveness that will help everyone get past this.

Be the hero and rescue yourself from a life of regrets ~

I know you can do this ~ and I'm pulling for you!

Peace and Forgiveness,
Night