things are getting better. im in a seperation with my husband right now, he is staying to pay off some of his debt he made but then we are getting divorced. he lives in a different room then me and the only time we see each other is when he needs a ride to work. FInally seeing how it is to be free and it feels good. I even had some hope thrown my way yesterday . Does anyone believe in coincidence? or fate? i went out with my bestfriend yesterday and she was super psyched about having a chance with her ex, she was going through pretty much the same dilema as me except for instead of being married she has a baby with him. Same type of controlling mean guy though. ANyways... She was all happy because this guy she always loved told her he loves her and wants to move in with her and take care of her ect. I was really happy for her, a little jealous because as some of you know my ex wouldnt talk to me for awhile. but i ignored the jeaolusy and literally was so happy for her, me and her decided to go out for ice cream this far away place probably like 40 min away, we got there and it was closed so she was like okay what now i dont know anything else around here, so im like lets wing it and find something, we ended up taking an exit that actually leaded to my favorite mall so we decided to get sushi there. going around the mall she went in the wrong side that we do not normally go into and she parked up right next to my Ex's car... i knew it was his because not many people have it, its like a rare little yellow convertible.i was like omg... im like i guess hes in the mall... we went into the entrance of best buy and he was standing right there. he worked there... i was like ahh i got scared that he was going to yell at me for annoying him or ignore me again but he waved at me to come to him so i did and he was like " You... i need to takl to you... and smiled im like oh no.." and he pulled me over around the corner and told me he was sorry for ignoring me that he was goig throgh alot, i found out that his grandma, aunt, dog and bestfriend died within the past few months, i couldnt believe it i knew all of them i wished he would have said something i felt awful. he told me that he found out about my meltdown where i hurt myself and the thought of losing me just made him angry and upset and he couldnt deal with anything so he just ignored everything. i told him i was getting divorced soon and he was like i guess life is looking up for everyone huh? im like hmm? and hes like i knew that would happen eventually just was hoping sooner or later you would realize he was wrong for you. Then told me he needs some time to himself for awhile but not to take it as ignoring and then held out his pinky and was like pinky swear me... we will talk again i promise, i will pop up back in your life soon, were both going through alot and its best if we wait it out a bit and then we can talk and hang out again. i was so happy from this all i wanted was for him to talk to me and i got it. life is looking up for me, Thank you god . Sorry for long post all of you lol my fingers just keep going lol.
*Sarah