My boyfriend and i have been together 2 years.We have had some huge fights and have split a couple of times.. I have seen him send messages to other women in a flirtatious manner and when i really believe that it isnt happening anymore he would change his password or hide his phone.I admit in the beginning of our relationship i was not together( i drank and partied waaaay too much)i have changed for him .. for me..cause i am better off not living in that life style.
Today what started out as us joking around became more serious.. he threw in my face his cousin"T"(a guy that hit on me before he knew that i was his cousins girl)" o yes "T" u have money and u party", and i threw a stone back.."i dont do like u and get online to flirt with others.. and change passwords and hide things from u. nor have i ever given u an incling that i wanted your cousin." From there it just became ugly.. throwing at me that one of the women he talked to told him i wouldnt change and that she would stay around and wait for him.
I am supposed to have fabulous self esteem when things like that are going on? I am supposed to be ok with women sending him pictures of themselves?
I pray everynight that god help our relationship.. because i do truely love him and i know he loves me( like god allowed us to cross paths and then 3 years later allowed us to to again and we held our time dear.Being best friends and then moving to a relationship.He is my everything.. and he... i need to stop here.