Yep - I should be able to do this alone - there isnt really a problem....now.... I dont need any help - Ive done this on my own and I can stop this on my own....

all thoughts I have had and that still rattle around in my brain somtimes it got to the stage where I was SIing deeper and for longer - several times a day - it was always on my mind....

I have a great T now - he understands and he is helping me to stop - I have stopped for almost 2 weeks I think... disconnected so not sure of times.... but must be two weeks?.... urges still come but I have worked out why I was SIing and that helps - and it was not for the reason i thought it was .. T helped me see that -

I hope once things settle you will put yourself on the list for a T - it will take a time as you have said and by the time you cmoe to the top of the list you may be ready to take the next step - if not you can always cancel

take care P7